Life is just getting worse.
There's been lots of points in my life where change has happened and I've been afraid of it being for the worst. Almost always the change isn't that bad, but sometimes It really is. Right now I feel like I am approaching the worst point in my life, and I feel sure that it will be just as bad(or worse) than I think it will be.
All of my friends are distancing from me all of a sudden. I don't think I did anything, and they say they aren't distancing, but they now never reach out. I used to have somebody to hang out with almost everyday, but I haven't hung out with a single person for 4 weeks. Its like everyone I know has ghosted me and I have no idea why.
To top off that, the one person I've always been able to go to for anything is leaving. When I have a hard time in my life, just had a bad day, or even just need to talk, my brother has always been the one person I've always had. He knows literally everything about me, and sometimes feels like he knows more about myself than me. I've never been without him, and I can't imagine what life would be like that way. Now he will be gone for years. I've never not had someone to talk to, even when I had no friends, because he was there, and for the first time in my life he won't be.